My career allows me time where I work from my office at home. My role is fairly stressful, as most careers are, and I frequently deal with upset customers, attorneys, etc. Naturally I am a fairly calm person, there isn’t much that agitates me. I am able to find joy in the little things that life has to offer and because of that, sometimes the stressors, large or small, can seem to wash away with something as simple as a friendly text or a hot crunchwrap supreme. Lately, I’ve been listening to some soft piano music to accent my calm through some overwhelming difficulties I am dwelling in.
A good friend of mine, a wise gentleman (lol) told me recently how what I am currently going through doesn’t really have a wrong direction or a bad outcome. Wherever I might end up, he believes that I will find happiness and joy. He says that just the kind of guy I am where I can find the joy in anything and get the most out of life. I have felt that to be true, at least throughout most of my adult years. Friends and strangers have mentioned it to me in ways that I have been grateful to hear. What he said next was surprising, but made sense. He said that while it is a great trait to have, like most things it is twofold and also a flaw. It is a flawed way of thinking because if you can find the joy and happiness in anything, then you may not be realizing that there is something greater, something more for-you beyond the horizon. It was beautifully inspiring to hear, what a token of wisdom that can bring about some enlightening reflection. Oh my, I’m doing it again – haha.
He brought up writing down my thoughts and feelings, something that another good friend had mentioned might help me organize my thoughts. Part of me thought ‘oh wonderul’ and another part thought ‘sounds dangerous to organize dark thoughts’. It led me to simply thinking it out, meditating on them and while mostly unresolved I did come to a conclusion that I write out a lot of what I need to hear here in this blog. How interesting.
I normally like to write with some sort of overall message or tone, providing some kind of insightful takeaway that speaks to a positive motivation or solution. I don’t feel as if I have much to offer presently, it took me longer than I care to admit to write the exert to this because I am not 100% sure what it is about. But I believe even the darkest nights are followed by a sunrise. Even the most difficult of times comes to an end where we can finally recover and center ourselves. So where I might lack the words, I can share with you this: